Self harm

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What would happen if I admit this to my doctor. On AD's and doing CBT. Sliced my leg up last week, can't go back to work yet, sick note is due to expire on Friday.

Do I tell the truth, that everyday is a battle not to cut myself into bits. Or would that end me up in a psych ward and SS at my door?

My children are happy and well cared for, they do not even know mummy is a bit sad.

Anyone got any experience of this?

Sorry if this is triggering to anyone, apologies I should have put it in the title.

Hi, I have self harmed for a long time. It is very very very unusual to be admitted for self harm so please don't worry about that. They will just want to help you and telling the truth can get you the help you need.

I am not a Mum but when I first told about my self harm I got support.

Thank you I have a supportive husband but am scared they will want to take my babies (age 1 and 2) as they may think I'd harm them too, which I would never do.

I stopped before having kids, but my past history of self harm was never an issue and I see other mums at school with familiar looking scars.

I am fairly certain that asking for help is the best option for both you and your children.

Self harm by its nature is about hurting yourself, they won't worry you will hurt them.

I really don't think that anyone who knew about mental health round think that self harm would put your babies at risk if anything other than than the problems that come with a depressed parent.

Thank you, that makes me feel a lot better. I was rather worried that they would think that my children would be 'at risk'.

I've self harmed for years. It's much more common than you think. Maybe talk to the gp about it though to see what extra support they can offer you that might make a difference
The national self harm network distraction pages are actually really helpful, so maybe check them out. They're grouped into how you feel.

I just did it again, what the fuck is wrong with me. DD2 asleep on the sofa, Dd1 in bed with dad, mopping up blood off the kitchen floor, pjs dripping blood (leg not arm, not a suicide attempt, just pain release, wtaf is wrong with me). They can't make me go back to work now can they, want to really hurt myself but not strong enough to really do it properly, need to really really chop myself into bits help? Want to really do some good job on myself this time but to weak to do my arms, I'm fucking bonkers, I'm 40 for gods sake, grow the fuck up! Oh shit, why did I do that? Why am I even sharing this on the internet?

Too weak, I apologise for my bad grammar.

I'm sending you a massive unmumsnet hug and to remind you that you can get through this and you're not a weak person. Pm me if you want to chat. I've been there.

You are not weak, lots of people SI. Take care of yourself xx

Hey, how are you doing today?

Ah ok thanks, your support means a lot.

Have doctors at 11am and psychiatrist at 4pm - will be telling them what I have done as there is no point in being dishonest. I'm just filling out my thought diaries and such like, trying to work out why I did it. Sometimes I think I just deliberately do things to fuck up, it's bizarre.

I have put the 'suicide knife' as it's jokingly known in our house (see there is some humour in all of this) in the bin. Triple wrapped in newspaper and duct tape. The bin men come later so no chance of getting it back.

I self-harm by hitting my head. Sounds so stupid. I've never told a professional but I have done it in front of the kids when i'm really wound up. They're going to have a ton of problems when they grow up aren't they.

I do that to, smack my head or bang it off the wall, it seems stupid doesn't it? But it's a real feeling. Try talking to your GP, see if they can get you some counselling, if your kids are really little (and small children can drive anyone to the edge, I know!!!) they are not going to be affected just yet. I think we all have a valve to let off steam and some of us do it in bizarre ways.

I have taught my two year old to growl and roar like a lion when she is really angry (she was biting and hitting me) and now sometimes I even use that myself. I say mummy is really angry now and let my roar out. My children are going to grow up roaring at people and making scary lion gestures.