Hi everyone,
I've only recently joined mumsnet and I posted around a bit and it seems like a really friendly community so I'm just going to vent and hope some can give good advice...
I have really severe OCD which comes and goes, some months not there at all, other months so bad I can't leave the house and even the house puts me in a constant state of terror.
At the moment is a bad phase:
The skin on my hands is scrubbed raw and bleeding
I've been ending up hours late to work because I can't leave if I get caught up in some stupid ritual/routine
I can't eat
I barely talk
I've thrown out loads of clothes and books and things I love (Including my last momento of my Gran) because I feel like they've become somehow contaminated or dirty and I can't have them around without throwing up from the sick feeling.
Basically its hell. I've gone on new meds but they dont seem to be working. The therapist never got back to me and I keep being told to just wait whenever I call. I'm in a constant state of irrational fear of everything I might touch around me. None of my friends or family can stand to be around me when I'm like this. They end up crying because they hate seeing me that way.
...I don't know what to do.