Lonely, fed up and down.

[superstarheartbreaker]

That's just it really. I'm on 10 mg of citralopran. I've been feeling exhausted recently and spaced out. Also my hair is falling out... Could this be the drug?

I'm fed up with being alone I'd love a dp but all my relationships have been abusive. I'm snappy with my lovely dd and I feel like I hate my life. I have no job ATM . I'm getting emdr to address early abuse trauma.
I keep getting bullied out of jobs... What am I doing wrong?

Oh dear superstar so sorry you are feeling so down. You won't need me to tell you that trauma suffered in childhood follows you into adulthood and I guess to a greater or lesser extent throughout your life. I'm glad you are getting EMDR presumably for PTSD as I've heard on these threads that people in a similar position to yourself speak very highly of this particular type of therapy.

It sounds like your self esteem is very low and you are emotionally "needy" so maybe you are jumping into relationships too quickly without really knowing the other person. I'm not sure what you mean by being "bullied out of jobs" so can you say a bit more about that. I don't think it's a case of "doing anything wrong" I think it sounds like you are having a really tough time and perhaps not a lot of support in RL? How old is your DD?

10mg of citalopram is a very low dose and not a therapeutic dose either. Maybe the GP doesn't think you are depressed as such but are just as you say very low at the moment. I think you should see a GP about your hair falling out as I don't think that is related to the citalopram but I could be wrong.