I just want to be happy

[BiscuitsAreMyDownfall]

I dont know what will make me happy. How do you know what makes you happy?

I have put on a stone of the 1 and a half I lost. I dont feel up to exercise even though I used to enjoy it. Thinking of joining a new gym with better timed exercise classes that I want to do. Then I need to stop eating as much, but I have no motivation for either. I just want to sit here and eat cake, biscuits and Ice Cream.

Need to figure out what to do with my life work-wise. I currently work in an office, but dont like it. I did enjoy working in retail, but haven't done that much of it and it was some time ago. Problem is I like the money the office work brings. I also like the weekends off, but would like time off during the week too. I also want nice things, but would only be able to afford them if I stuck to my job and carried on with my qualification, which I really dont want to do. It was never something I ever wanted to do. Ive always enjoyed customer service and helping people.

My house is a mess, but DH has said he is going to sort it while the DCs are at school (he's a SAHD). Although I need him to help me sort the trampoline out and the garden out. Its a mess with rubbish in it, but I cant do it myself and he only wants to get the inside sorted. He grew up in a shithole and this seems to have impacted on his adult home. I want to live in a show home type of house. In all honesty I think I need to sort it if that's what I want, but its too overwhelming.

I have no friends. Well I have friends on Facebook, but no-one I can call a friend. No-one I can hang out with. No-one I feel comfortable inviting round or arranging to meet up with. Not that I can be bothered to either.

Having a quick skim on here makes me feel like I shouldn't be here as I didn't have the bad childhood a lot of people had. Ive had no major trauma in my life to bring anything on. Also I have no reason to be unhappy. A friend of mine lost her DP last week from cancer. Their baby was 17 weeks old. She has a reason to be sad, she's going through shit. While nothing bad is happening to me. I just feel lost.

I just want to be happy and dont know where to start. How can I be happy?

You sound depressed, and depression doesn't need a reason. It's an illness that can strike out of the blue. When I'm depressed I also cannot come up with anything that will make me happy and I feel that I'm not worthy of anybody's friendship or love. Please see your gp, you can and deserve to be helped.

Please see your gp and get some help. Depression is a horrible place to be xx

I think you need to speak to your GP.

For me, I don't aim to be happy though. I think it is a fleeting emotion that brings mere moments of joy. I just aim to feel contented with my choices in life.

Hi, old making a few changes help? Going part time in office work, 3/4 days a week and dh working those days to mean you have income and both time at home with children? Then you can have more time to sort house/exercise?