Stressed & feeling low

[Bambamboom]

It's been a tough year, a really tough year.
Both me and my partner have had an array of health issues, mine ongoing an chronic, it's exhausting me and my doctors are useless and my partner has been in and out of hospital since New Year's Day (happy new year!)
Thought things were on the up, but the sale of our flat had just fallen through (were meant to exchange today and buyers pulled out!) now looking at losing the house we were buying, being left with solicitors fees (again, this is the 3rd buyer to pull out this year) and we are going to have to struggle by a little longer.
It sounds so petty but I'm devastated. We needed this sale, for financial reasons, desperately.
I'm starting to wonder if my constant exhaustion has nothing to do with my health problems and wondering if I'm depressed.
Life is black and white at the moment. Can't remember the last time I really enjoyed my day. It's so sad.
I miss being happy, having energy and being able to pick myself back up when things go wrong.
We've had no end of financial stress, health problems and emotional stress due to loss. I needed this to go well, just to get the money stress out the way, to start focusing on everything else, feels like our something good has been snatched away.
I know I could have it worse, really I'm lucky, but right now I'm feeling very sorry for myself.

You do sound very low. You've been through so much. Have you spoken to a GP at all yet?

I have done, with my various other problems & chronic Illness. But I thought my exhaustion, mood swings, insomnia etc was down to my under active thyroid but I'm starting to wonder if it's stress/depression.
Last time I saw a doctor because I thought I was depressed she refused to give me any medication, fed me some bullshit story about how I "look at life" (basically told me to think more positively) and have me a link to some self help website.

I quit my job because A) I'm exhausted all the time and dp was having to take time off work because I just couldn't get out of bed on my days of and B) because we were just about to move away so wouldn't be able to work there anymore and then the bloody sale falls through.
I thought all our money problems were gone (because we were moving and paying off debt at the same time) so I quit and now...were going to be broke until we sell.
No money, no energy, not a lot to look forward to. Sounds so pathetic. It's just everything out of my control now, i can't Exactly get a job when I know at some point we will be moving so just have to ride the poverty out

I'd see a different GP. Some aren't keen on giving out ads. I'm so sorry you experienced that minimisation of how hard things are for you.

Could you do some temping work when you feel strong enough? Then you won't be letting anyone down on moving.

Sell some stuff on eBay maybe? You probably want a listening ear not advice. Hope you don't mind a few ideas.

I just, don't know when you start needing meds? When it affects your everyday life I guess, which my exhaustion really does, I'm pretty irritable but I think that's because I'm exhausted and I don't enjoy much but again I think that's because I'm exhausted...but all this makes me feel depressed but I don't know what's causing the exhaustion.
Looked for temp work this morning, there's not a lot but will keep looking.
Only 1 and that's Saturday and Sundays so family time out the window...but maybe if it's just a short while.

Have you tried completing a depression questionnaire? Try this one and see what the answer is: www.nhs.uk/Tools/Pages/depression.aspx

That may help you to recognise if it's pure exhaustion alone. Did you say your GP only has one doctor? I'd change surgery then? It's so important you feel heard and supported right now.

No, my surgery has lots of doctors I just saw one doctor but there are others. The bad experience was actually at another surgery completely. I've told the doctors my symptoms but I think they thought it was my thyroid/ something else but never mentioned depression which I'm surprised considering my symptoms. I'll try the quiz, thank you.