I really need some advice please.
I have been feeling stressed for about 4 months since we moved across the country for a new job. I instantly realised that i didn't like my new job and that the problem was that i want out of my profession (nursing). I have literally driven myself insane with worry and debating if i should move back to my home town. My 15 year old son is still there with my parents who have now separated and now my elderly grandma has just had heart surgery and i feel so useless. I can't seem to think straight, i can't make rational decisions, i have stomach pains and i feel exhausted. I have just had 2 weeks off on annual leave, but i called in sick today on my first day back as i couldn't face (or felt safe enough) work. I went to see my GP and sat there in tears, he gave me a self referral phone number for counselling and CBT but they can't even assess me until next week. He said to self cert this week and phone if i needed a sick note. I now have to speak to my manager and explain, i know that she will be ok, but i feel bad that i have let the team down.
I know that i need to change jobs and possible relocate closer to my family. I know i need some help to clear my head a little and i really do need this time to deal with my problems but i feel like 4 months into a new job i look pretty bad going off sick with stress and anxiety. My GP knows my manager and i feel like i was being a bit of fool sat crying to him, and felt like a fraud.
I just don't know what to do.