I am often reluctant to use the word 'depressed and it seems to get overused - sometimes we all feel a bit down, but that is a long way from depression. However, the way I'm feeling at the moment goes something like this - tired, despondent, total and utter lack of motivation (manage to get out of bed and off to work, but have very little inclination to do anything else). What's worse, is that I have found myself more and more frequently wishing I had never got married or had kids (I have 2). I love them to bits, but I keep thinking about how different (for that, read better) my life could have been if I had chosen a different path. I feel I am just here to make everybody else's life easier, and I have no purpose of my own. I am a passenger on DH's life as he pursues a high profile career (I have lived in 9 different houses and re-located to different parts of the country 4 times in 13 years). I feel I have no real roots, no quality of family life (DH works at least 10 hours weekdays and works every weekend, too) and no goals. On top of this I am totally overwhelmed by all that is expected of me as a home-maker, employee, wife and mother. My brain is like a drawer stuffed so full of things that it won't close and I am forgetting to do loads of things when I am usually a very organised person. But the bottom line is - I don't want to go to a doctor, I don't want to be put on antidepressants, but I know I do need help, counselling or some such. Can anyone suggest any alternative? I feel like I'm drowning.