Ok, just want to know if anyone else has experienced symptoms like mine and how to cope. May go to gp however have been on ads in the past and would like to avoid them if possible, find better coping mechanisms. I'm a single parent now divorced with an ok job, mortgage, fairly intelligent. Despite that I have become involved in a destructive relationship with a chap with previous 'issues' and was divorced by his ex wife for unreasonable behaviour and domestic violence. People deserve a second chance yes? Well I feel utterly trapped and controlled. Bombarded, begged, criticised etc. he has threatened me with suicide. I'm not coping v well. I keep functioning and going to work but I'm numb, feel like I push people away, no one knows. My life isn't feeling real. I feel terrible guilt I've let him down but it is affecting my mental well being. He also describes himself a 'mess'.. I cannot describe what's happened. I'm trying to get back normality, my fight or flight response has kicked in. I'm jumpy, looking over my shoulder to see if he is there, so upset. But I seem to go into denial. I can't be with him, I wish I could and it was different. Mentally, my emotions are all over, I can't keep tack of thungs, my mind goes blank etc I feel on and off numb. How do I get better, what will help? I'm excercising and eating ok but I'm constantly in alert mode.. So unhappy