Feel terrible and don’t know what to do about it.
Diagnosed with PND and anxiety 3ish months ago and originally prescribed Sertraline. It caused diarreah so after 2 weeks was stopped and I was prescribed Citalopram. Same side effects so after 2 weeks changed to Mirtazipine. Didn’t feel these made any difference either so was changed again, this time to Fluoxetine about 5 weeks ago. I still don’t feel any better than I did 3 months ago (worse if anything) so I went back yet again to my GP today. I feel like I’ve been totally abandoned, not so much that he doesn’t care but that there’s nothing left he can suggest. My low mood is severely affecting me, I’m forgetting basic important things, such as struggling to remember to take high blood pressure medication. I was also hearing screaming until about a month ago. He asked me all the basic questions today including had I thought of self harm to which I answered yes. He questioned me further on what I meant and I said to take all my blood pressure medication in one go. He asked me how often I thought about suicide and whether I would do it and I said most days but I don’t know. He said he could refer me to a psychiatrist but thought there was little point as they really didn’t have enough time to help much and recommended I stop taking the current tablets and self refer for counselling for which he gave me a leaflet. I’ve just been on the website and it talks of group sessions and courses to improve mood. Quite frankly the thought of any sort of group fills me with dread and definitely isn’t the way I want to go.
I’m actually sitting here crying now trying to put into words how I feel and trying to give myself a reason not to just end it.