Is this behaviour strange?

[dontcallmehon22]

My friend has mentioned she's worried about me. I know this might sound odd, but I didn't realise anything was wrong, but now I think there might be.

If I go out, I can drink and drink. I am often very flirtatious with men and as I am fairly attractive I do seek and enjoy attention. I gravitate towards drama. Afterwards though I can feel extremely depressed and anxious. It's not unheard of for me to go into a bar on my own and make new friends there. I can be very confident and vivacious, particularly when alcohol is involved. I don't drink much unless I'm out though, so I wouldn't say the alcohol in itself was an issue.

Sometimes I'm very low and anxious. I was worried about childcare arrangements and couldn't get hold of my ex, so I sent him 10 text messages, a voicemail and another 3 messages via Facebook. The spiralling anxiety meant I couldn't get to sleep much that night.

I don't watch TV at all, as I struggle to concentrate on it. The only things I watch are diet related programmes on YouTube. I had a historical issue with bulimia which is creeping back a little, though I don't feel it's a problem. My eating habits are very strange though. I lost a lot of weight on 5:2, but I often fast every other day, except at the weekend if I'm out. Yesterday I ate 6 smartie choc bars and 4 pain au chocolates, plus 2 cold fish fingers and some chips, left over from my son's lunch. I was then sick. The only other thing I ate that day was a salmon kebab, some grapes and an apple.

Yesterday I went for a long drive to the same place twice. Partly because my phone charger is broken and I have a car charger I wanted to use. But again, I wonder if this is actually quite strange behaviour. In the car I have the radio on really loud and like to sing to it. It makes me feel exhilarated.

Sometimes I have lots of energy. Other times I want to lie in bed.

I don't know. It feels a bit, not quite right. But I am functioning and doing the things I'm expected to do.

Hi. I really don't have any advice as I don't have any experience but I didn't want to read and run.
Maybe you should talk to your GP. Try and write down all the experiences you feel are not quite right and tell your GP about all of them.

Thanks lucky. My experience of GPs is that they write you a prescription for Ads which I find useless. I do have a counsellor I'm seeing tomorrow. I have always been like this to some extent, so maybe it's just me?

Just seeing if anyone else has any thoughts?

Hi, the fact you have a counsellor maybe indicates to yourself that there are issues you have. Everyone reacts and behaves differently, I guess the difference is do you think it is a problem to you? If so then the usual route for help is gp, counselling and referral to a psychiatrist for a diagnosis of a mental illness if your gp or counsellor or you thinks you should.

I pay privately to see my counsellor due to a relationship break up I had, but I just wonder if it runs deeper than that.

It doesn't seem problematic to me! As you say, you're functioning well, there is nothing wrong with enjoying singing, and enjoying a night out isn't unusual. If the only indication is your friend's comment, I'd be thinking more about her motives to be honest.

That's reassuring. She is a good friend, so I think she is just concerned. My moods are a bit erratic, so I think she thought I might have mild bipolar. She's just finished reading a book about a writer who has bipolar and bulimia and who has a series of bad relationships.

But while I sometimes have lots of energy and sometimes I'm a bit low, I don't spend vast sums of money or drink excessively at home or anything. I go to appointments I'm supposed to go to etc. My eating is a bit disordered, that's true.

Driving - I do it a lot, as I enjoy it. Sometimes I'll go for a drive on the motorway for fun. But I'm driving legally and safely...so?

No experience of this... but sounds sort of bi-polar(ish).... perhaps you should have a good chat with your doctor. Sorry, no really helpful advice.

I think there are traits, but apart from the long term eating issues I'm aware of, I'm not sure my behaviour is particularly dangerous or harmful.