First pyschotic episode..depression after?

[Katkins1]

Hi all

I posted here before, got lots of support. Am on the village thread, too. About 2 months ago, I had my first psychotic episode...had home treatment and was discharged today. It lasted about 8 weeks in the hallucinations/ delusions stage, and about 3/4 weeks in the very acute stage. It was building with depression and stress, I think, though I'd experienced lots of stuff for a while (about 4 months). I've reached a depressive/crying stage with it, still experiencing some low level stuff. Am withdrawn and have a really reduced appetite...the DR knows and I'm on anti-depressants, which are working quite well..I'm functioning and doing things. DD is coming back at the weekend.

I've seen the Doctor and have a CPN and stuff, but I feel a bit 'lost'; I don't have any thing or anyone in RL that can relate to psychosis, though they do depression, and I'm wondering if the depression after is normal? Is it normal to need to sleep more, and feel cold too? During my episode, I was quite hot, I've only really just started in the last week or so, to be able to regulate my temperature. Also wondering if anyone else has experience of it- I feel so alone and defeated, or deflated (or both!), guilty and scared. Well, a lot of things...all at once. Have been sat here crying instead of doing anything useful for a bit.

I found the come down from my psychosis to be very very hard. I felt so embarrassed and ashamed of myself, it was awful. Now I am 18 months on and it has got easier to deal with. I just can't believe I was so poorly when I feel so normal now.

Give yourself time to process it and be kind to yourself.

I am very ashamed, and feeling very guilty, and quite overwhelmed with 'normal' day to day life. Did you find the physcial adjustments hard going too?

I have only had psychotic symptoms like strong visual hallucinations and delusions. Actually at the moment I believe that some people are lizards, but that is just side thingy. Not that I am immersed into them. I don't feel ashamed more like knowledgeable.

Physically I was ok, well I was fatter from the meds but you know! I was in hospital on a section while I was psychotic so I had been able to so doing all the day to day things so I wasnt tired out by trying to keep my normal life going.

I am s still scared of getting poorly again but so far my meds have kept me feeling really well. I try to be forgiving to myself when I am embarrased by how I acted when I was psychotic. It is hard to believe that is not your fault somehow. But it want noone would choose to be so unwell.

Just give yourself time to recover because it dies take a while xx

Sorry for my bad spelling I'm on my phone in the car!

And I just remembered I was so so hot when I wapsychotic as well! Maybe it is a side effect?

I was burning up, I thought I was on fire! Now, more flu like symptoms and shivering. I kept saying that I was on fire, spiders crawling on me, was uncontrably shaking, things like that. I was nearly sectioned...but had home treatment instead.

Airborne , do you think there are different types of psychoses? One is more underlying with fixed perceptions and false beliefs, and the other more at the acute stages? Am I guessing right? I've been given no information whatsoever, so I'm just guessing!

FDG I remember your posts from the past and I know you had a really tough time. Just wanted to say how glad I am that you are now fully recovered.

I think there are ones with total out of control/unable to communicate psychosis and then psychotic symptoms like where you can function pretty normally (work, use internet, talk to people). I feel that some people are lizards but at the same time I can function normally. Of course I am troubled with these thoughts but I am on the top of them.
Not sure if my classification is right though :)

I had a very acute episode like that, I was functioning but having hallucinations and delusions, too hot, in agony, all sorts of stuff. It lasted 8 weeks, and in the end, I came out of it because it ran its course, am on anti depressants now. I had anti physcotics, but I didn't like them, so stopped. The doctor said fine, it was only for anxiety any way. They think I control it well, but I still hear voices and have weird perceptions of the world.