Need help, now on Citalopram

[miserymum44]

First time on here, i really need some help and support. Its very difficult to write this but i have been a terrible mum. My 3 kids have been yelled at all their short lives, i have been rough with them and even told them i hated them and worse to my husband who isnt a bad man. I get rages that i cant control. some days im ok but i never know in the morning if it will be a good day or a rage day. My sister stopped talking to me for a long time because she said i needed help but I didnt think so and i wouldnt go to the doctor. I didnt want to be on drugs. But one day i knew that if i didnt get help i might do something very serious. Im not a bad person really but when its a rage day i hate everyone even my children and my family. I went to the doctor though I didnt tell her everything she advised me to take Citalopram. She said try it and if it has bad effects we can try something else. I dont like the idea of it but i have taken it for 3 days and i have had 3 good days though thhat may be a coincidance. Please has anyone got good experience of this drug. It has been hard for me to ask for help but I know that i need some help and support.

[WeAreAllStarDust]

Please keep taking them. My MIL is exactly the same. And sadly my dp is a rude, selfish, lazy ape - so you have my sympathies. Of course you feel depressed thinking about the future, very understandable. I am not your GP, but perhaps when you are starting on Citalopram it can cause swings in your moods. Surround yourself with those who lift you up, not those who drag you down. Is your DH supportive?

[miserymum44]

No, rude selfish lazy ape sums him up too! . he has his moments but its all beyond him really, if he has his dinner ready and a clean shirt and no row he's happy. your right thank you i'm going to phone a friend today and go out and forget it all for a bit.