First time on here, i really need some help and support. Its very difficult to write this but i have been a terrible mum. My 3 kids have been yelled at all their short lives, i have been rough with them and even told them i hated them and worse to my husband who isnt a bad man. I get rages that i cant control. some days im ok but i never know in the morning if it will be a good day or a rage day. My sister stopped talking to me for a long time because she said i needed help but I didnt think so and i wouldnt go to the doctor. I didnt want to be on drugs. But one day i knew that if i didnt get help i might do something very serious. Im not a bad person really but when its a rage day i hate everyone even my children and my family. I went to the doctor though I didnt tell her everything she advised me to take Citalopram. She said try it and if it has bad effects we can try something else. I dont like the idea of it but i have taken it for 3 days and i have had 3 good days though thhat may be a coincidance. Please has anyone got good experience of this drug. It has been hard for me to ask for help but I know that i need some help and support.