I've been diagnosed with low level depression twice in the last 6 years, both times I was having a very difficult time at home and each time a year of 30mg citalopram really helped and got me back on track.
The second time was last year when I separated from my husband. Once he'd left my home life improved drastically and I felt that I didn't need the tablets any more so I stopped.
Life since then has been brilliant, more relaxed, kids happy, much much better. I felt a dark cloud lift as soon as he'd gone and everything was fine. That was almost a year ago.
However, in the last few months I've been feeling increasingly anxious. I can't put it down to anything so I'm confused as to why it's happening. I've been keeping busy which helps but at times when I'm alone (in the car usually) I get very panicky and tearful. I overthink almost everything and sometimes have a horrible feeling of dread.
In the past when I've felt bad I've assumed that it's caused by an actual event or situation that I just don't have any control over (relationship breakdown) but this time it's different because the previous cause has now gone.
I worry about everything, particularly the kids. I can't stop feeling guilty about the breakup of my marriage (it was a mutual decision, so no real blame) and how it may affect the kids. I've met a new man but I'm terrified to move on with him because of this anxiousness. I drive to work in tears, then dust myself down and get on with the day.
Is this still depression, anxiety or just stress? What can I take to make it go away? I've tried rescue remedy & kalms but they haven't helped. I'm wondering if citalopram would help again, but I don't have that overwhelming feeling of sadness this time. In fact I do feel happy most of the time but with this mixed up panicky feeling as well.
Can anyone help?