Depressed with dd18mo and 37w preg

[BeanyIsPregnant]

And I've been doing so well :(
Had depression on and off my entire life, mainly due to a shoddy home life, now live with my lovely dp, and dd 18mo.
Came off my antidepressants when pregnant with dd, struggled a lot with hyperemesis and went back on them when she was 6w old. Came off them again when preg this time, and felt fine! More than fine.. Normal!!

But now I'm struggling. I don't know if it's the start of my depression coming back or just exhaustion/ fed up with life..

Dd is teething and is a bloody nightmare, dp is working away this week. 37w preg and really had enough, but also the reality of having 2 dc under 2 is scaring me a lot..... I don't know if I'm ready for this.

So what do I do? I don't want to go to my mw, she's useless and has form for minimising problems, and I don't know what my doc can do.. I want to breastfeed and I know that can impact what meds I can take, anyone else in the same boat?

Hi can you talk to your HV ( as shortly after birth you will not be under my anyway). She may have suggestions of support groups, practical ideas of managing under 2's (2 of them), support With breast feeding etc?

Many people bf on ad's - several types are used so you could see your gp about that as well?

Do you think if I went to the docs they would consider putting me on 'bf friendly' antis now? The feelings of anxiety/ wanting to burst into tears constantly, combined with the fact I don't care about the housework/ washing up etc and the fact dd has had a jam sandwich for lunch for the past 3 days is telling me I need help sooner rather than later..

I might have a look at my mumsnet local page and see if anyone is doing anything near me for a bit of support :/

Yes there are ad's used in pregnancy and in bf so worth a visit to your gp.

Do you go to the local groups in your area - children centre ones etc for support?