I am not coping today

[BertieBotts]

I hate being me and I want to be someone else.

I'm having a total meltdown because I can't even make a simple list of the tasks I'm supposed to achieve in a day. I'm so sick of being told I need to be less lazy, more organised, more motivated. I AM TRYING. I don't know how to be these things.

I'm not going to harm myself but I don't want to be here any more. I don't know how to do it, I want to go home.

I need someone to help me get a grip of myself.

OK. Friend is calling in 10 minutes. I'm going to go for a smoke and a shower and hopefully that will help.

Hope friends call helped. Not much advice as I am in bed feeling same but sending you some fellowship and love

Thanks Queen It did. Still feeling a bit wobbly but much better now, able to make a plan.

Also realised that I'm probably over hormonal due to change of pill :( Feel a bit silly now.

Not silly - doesn't matter what the cause is. Glad you feeling bit better