Hi there,
it's my first post here and i'm just hoping for a bit of support or advice.I've two kids, 2,5 yo dd and 3 mo dd. after the older one was born I was not in a great place mentally for a few months but things shifted to get worse again after I went back to work. I was never formally diagnosed with pnd but then things picked up again and i was back to my old self. I think I am becoming depressed again- I've a supportive hv and gp so will chat with them next week, but my fear is that the depression will keep coming back:( I'm almost constantly irritated, tired, quite tearful at times and low. Currently I am a SAHM and was hoping to take a year from work to enjoy my daughters and stay with them when they are still small.
In addition, I am a foreigner and after a few years in the UK I still struggle to settle in. On number of occasions I've arranged playdates or coffees with other mums, but seldom these were reciprocated, I am unsure why. Sometimes the contact just stopped, and i felt uncomfortable calling or texting again. I start to think that perhaps as foreigners I will never be fully accepted where we stay and worry on how this may impact on my daughters in the future. Perhaps we should move back? I really don't know. Hopefully it's also the depression that makes me feel like there is no solution. Anyway, at present despite going to toddler groups and classes I feel very isolated. The low mood makes it even more difficult for me to socialise. I really hope with the help if gp and maybe medication I'll get back to myself again, but struggle to see it just now.