I have pnd and having a really bad day/ week. Thought I was on the mend but now crying again and haven't done that for while so think the AD's are loosing their effectiveness. In fact mentioned it to the doctor today and he thinks I may need to change them. I feel SO low and no energy, hopeless, depressed. We are supposed to be going away this weekend for a big family gathering with the in-laws. It's going to be really full on, seeing lots of people, different sets of families, childrens birthday party, and a long journey, and I've got to pack tonight as leaving very early tomorrow. Haven't done the washing yet, and the house is a mess. I've just got the baby down and feel exhausted beyond belief. They've been looking forward to it for weeks so feel like I have to go.
I really don't want too! I know we have too, (for my son's sake mostly, he is 7 months and he will see his grandparents & cousins etc) but just wanted to get that off my chest. Relationship is on the rocks too so that certainly doesn't help. I know relatively speaking it's not really a big deal, but how can I muster the strength for this?! X