anyone else suffer from pyschosis/psychotic episodes?

[TheArmadillo]

Had a psychotic episode a few weeks ago. Have had them before but this seems to be a lot shorter (last one was about 9 months long and took about 2 years to recover).

Currently taking anti-psychotics and having therapy. Coming to terms with the idea that this is not going away forever and will come back whenever I get completely stressed out. Also dealing with money troubles as a result.

I don't know anyone who has the same/similar. Just wondering if there is anyone else out there? Dh is a sahd partly because of this, others are supportive but don't understand what psychosis is.

www.mumsnet.com/Talk/feeling_depressed/2112903-Just-need-to-get-it-out-last-night? That's my link. I wrote some it in the throes of an episode, sorry if it makes little sense.

I have 9 voices in total and they throughout the year had three main themes they push me to sleep with abusive men as I believed my blood was poisoned as I was a angel and anyone abusive that touched me would be punished.

Theme two is they attempted to convince me I was a peadophille and should kill myself before I hurt my dc.

Theme three is they pushed me to take drugs which I did and I am now battling with withdrawal.

I also see things a shadow man constantly follows me around and I feel him touch me inappropriately and often he rapes me.

I feel like peadophilles are watching the house to take my dc and have been known to react aggressively if someone asks the wrong question such as what school do your dc attend. I also got in a taxi and verbally abused him as I didn't want to tell him which number house I lived in as I feared he would take my dc.

I refused to send my dc to school as I feared they would be abducted.

I had periods of catatonia.

I had jarbled thoughts and speech.

Periods where I was unable to remember how to speak.

I had four failed suicide attempts.

My husband and my mum helped me out but I still had to care for dc sometimes.

Ah I have read your thread I didn't comment as you seemed to be getting lots of advice.

I have some of the same. Abusive voices that push me to do things. I have three. Shadows, faces in the window, ghosts. All sorts of things like that. Also fast and garbled speech and catatonic sometimes.

Not sure if I suffer(ed) from intrusive thoughts or psychotic thoughts. anyways, I thought that some people are lizards. I was sure they are, I could feel it. One day when I was angry and cpn cancelled his appointment I started to speak about lizards to him. I was brought a prescription for more antispychotics home same day. I still feel that they are lizards but not so sure if they really are. Just wondering if I have intrusive feelings.

It seems like they are trying to poison me with meds too.

I feel as though I'm getting the early warning signs of another episode, despite taking my diapazem like I'm meant to. Missed my anti depressants last night, so took when I remembered thus morning, but I'm getting odd things like deja by and its freezing cold. I'm finding it hard to even get dressed or find my clothes, feel so spaced out. Am struggling so much. I don't know if I'm being over cautious or to go to a n e.

I never felt somebody would be poisoning me. However I think the drugs can't be that good for our system. The strange thing with lizards is that they are not threatening me. They just can be really mean. At the moment I can rationalize that they can't be lizards but I just get the feeling that they are. Really annoying when I try to be normal.

I'm in the last phase of hospital treatment for psychotic depression which is part of my bipolar depression. I'm on a combination of anti-psychotics and mood stabilisers. This is the worst episode I've ever had with visual and olafactory hallucinations - vile, vile smells to back up what I could see. I also got stuck on conspiracy theories and did some stuff that I look back on and cringe a bit, though I know it was part of the illness.

The episodes was brought on through stress and hypomania, which in turn lead to me stopping my meds as I Was convinced they were poisoning me.

Best advice I can give is that when you get stable on medication, you can get on with life and don't stop taking them when you get better.

See if you can get to see your GP rather than A&E unless you think you're in immediate danger of hurting yourself. While emergency departments to have MH liaison, the chances are that you'd be seen by a Dr with little to no experience in psychosis, whereas a GP sees a wider number of illnesses.

I hope you can see someone this week, katkins

((( all ))) - psychosis is difficult to deal with.

I couldn't get a doctor's appointment, but they will do my repeat prescription by four today. Hopefully.

Oh good, I hope they do! I find I can sometimes get a phone appointment even when they have no appointments left, my surgery does a phone triage system.

How do you find the recovery period from an episode, snowy? What's it likevphyscially and do you still see or hear things?

I did not have any physical ailments apart from smelling things that were not there.or actually yes I have had. half of my brain went numb because of lizards.

I still hear things, but not as much or as strongly, easier to ignore. I've found out that the medics are trying to poison me, can't ask as they'd just deny it

Snowy, do a reality check on the last thing you wrote about poisoning and get help please- sounds to me as though you are slipping into an episode. Call your CPN, crisis team or GP asap.

How did you found out that they are trying to poison you snowymouse? Lizards luckily won't do that kind of stuff. Actually I have started to wonder what they want.

I can't call, they'd deny it and tell me to take the meds.

Are you taking your meds then?

No, they're harming me.

What medication is everyone on?

I'm on olanzapine 10mg
Sertraline 200mg
Sodium valproate 400mg
Clonazepam up to 3mg

I was taking 400mg clozapine, mirtazapine and citalopram.

I take:
900mg lithium
20mg aripiprazole
300mg quetiapine
Lorazepam prn

It's keeping the psychotic episodes at bay but I'm worried that I can feel depression nipping at my heels.