I skipped my medication last night

[mawbroon]

I am on anti psychotics and anti depressants and have been for a couple of years now.

I am sick fed up of feeling drugged all the time. The mornings are particularly hard, no matter how long I have been asleep.

Last night, I was out late doing my hobby and thought fuck it, I have loads to do tomorrow, so deliberately didn't take my medication. Normally when I have been out late, I have to go back to bed once kids are at school/nursery.

Today, I got up with ds2 at 6.30am and I do not feel fuzzy and drugged. It is bloody amazing to feel normal just for once.

But I know I can't do this regularly or I will be in trouble. I absolutely can't risk getting ill again.

Sometimes it is just so fucking shite knowing that I have to live life through a drugged up fog because of this stupid illness.

Don't worry, I am very sensible and it will be back to taking the meds again tonight. I reckoned that just once wouldn't hurt.

I forgot to take my meds one night but did not notice any difference next day. I still felt drugged. I am on antipsychotics and lithium.

Which antipsychotics are you on? I take Quetiapine, but I am on 150mg which my psych keeps telling me is such a tiny dose. Doesn't feel tiny when I can't keep my eyes open!

Perhaps some of it is psychological in my case? I dunno.

Have you spoken to anyone about the possibility of changing your medication or lowering the dose?

I did talk to the psych about my changing at my last few appointments becuase the Quetiapine was causing me to have outrageous sugar cravings. I managed to mostly get that under control and lost loads of the weight that I had put on so decided to stay on it rather than risk changing to something that didn't work so well and risk getting ill again.

I have an appointment in a couple of weeks time so will mention it to him and see what he says. I really can't risk another psychotic episode

Abilify 25 mg, but I think it is the lithium which makes me tired. Drugged feeling maybe comes from abilify.