Have docs appointment this morning, don't know how to say how I feel.

[ElleBellyBeeblebrox]

I was diagnosed with depression while I was at uni, and given paroxetine which seemed to help, and then came off it a few years later when some of the external factors improved (left abusive relationship, family difficulties improved). Had Pnd after dd was born 4years ago and picked up when she was about two and sleeping better and came off tabs again. DS is just turned one and I thought I'd managed to get through it this time, but the last few months I've been feeling grim again, weepy, can't be bothered with anything or to see anyone. The worst thing is my temper, I feel so angry all the time and get so shouty and irritable. I feel like a horrible mother :( and dh doesn't understand at all. Sorry to post such a garbled load of crap but I was in floods of tears this morning after the usual morning ups and downs with getting out to school etc, have booked into see GP. Don't know what to say to her, I just feel pathetic.

I'm really sorry you are feeling like this. I hope with the right treatment and support you will start to feel better very soon.
I think it's a brave thing to accept that you need some help again and to go to the doctor. I have had problems with anxiety over the years and I often find that I feel anxious and miserable that it's back again if that make sense and it's hard to admit it to anyone else.
I think you have explained really well here how you are feeling. Maybe you could write down what you want to say so you can refer to it at the drs if you need to.
I hope it goes alright today and let us know how you get on.

and you are not pathetic, you are struggling with something that's really difficult and you are doing what you can to feel better. I know it's hard but try to be kinder to yourself. Easier said than done I know.

well done for making a doctors appointment. i think you just say what you've said here, more or less - is the same doctor that treated you last time? make a list before you go, of your symptoms: weepy, irritable, lethargic etc. tell them you are worried that pnd is rearing its head again. good luck, i hope it goes well. i am in a similar situstion in that dd is coming up for a year and a half and i am starting to really struggle, but it all feels very different to when ds was small and i was a mess even before he was born, so asking for help is proving hard. remember as well you've got through this once, you can do it again

You're not pathetic; making the appointment is the first step to feeling better. I would write down how you're feeling - even just a list of what you've been feeling. That can be a starting point for the conversation with the doctor and means you won't forget anything. I'd also write down your history and details of what helped in the past (medication, any support groups or therapy) so that you also have those details to hand as it can be easy to forget stuff in the limited time available for a gp appointment. I hope the gp is supportive and that it goes well. Take care.

Thankyou all. Doc was lovely while I blubbed and sniffed and DS crawled about touching things. She's given me sertraline which I've not had before, so don't know much about. Also offered to sign me off work which I declined as I think I need to be out of the house (although work is stressful). Thankyou all again feel a bit brighter for talking x

Hi OP

Well done for going back to your GP. Having read your post I think it's what I need to do as well, I'm having a severe 'low' mood at the moment but have never been diagnosed with PND or anything. I hate feeling like this.

I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling shit too. I just feel like I ought to be able to shrug it off, pull myself together etc, but that's not how it works unfortunately. Please go to your GP, I feel much better for just sharing with her.

Hi OP

You've done the right thing getting help.

Have you started the sertraline yet? I'm 6 months ahead of you. Hope I can support. Now on 200mg

Thankyou Dirk :)
I'm on my second day on 50mg, feeling a bit queasy and dicky tum (sorry!) but okay other than that. How are you feeling?