trying to better myself...again!

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have totally lost confidence since i had ds1 10 years ago. have been a stay at home mum ever since, apart from a couple of hours cleaning for someone each week.

i have bouts of anxiety and blush alot. i have just plucked up the courage (pathetic i know) to ring up about a body massage course at a nearby college and i am to go tomorrow to enrol (if any places are available).

last time i tried to enrol on a course, i got there and everybody seemed to know where they were going and what the crack was. Me, never having set foot in a college in my life, decides to ask and was greeted with a woman rather far up her own arse who made me feel about 2 inches tall.
needless to say, i left there not enroled and very upset and annoyed with myself.

i just hope i can get on this course and do something about myself. although, i might be too shy to bloody massage anyone!!

it's a different college than last time btw

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Cheeryface - u poor thing. Get back there and enrol. I too have anxiety attacks in public, i'm the world's worst. I also blush and sweat in situations like u were in today.

I started a course in January and have Just gone back. ~The day I started, I broke out in a sweat, had palpitations and weren't going to go back ever again! but I forced myself back. Just remember everyone on your course is in the same situation and nobody is any better or worse than anyone else. There are always going to be students or people in general who think they are better than anyone else, but the truth is they are not.

I still get days when I feel really panicky and my chest tightens and I feel breathless, but I have to force myself to get there. I have been a Full-time mum for 4 years now and it is difficult to get out there, but we can do it.

Do this course and when u complete it, u will feel a much more confident, independent and assertive person.

I wish u all the best.

Good for you! And remember, most people won't even notice that you are anxious.