I was referred to social services because I wasn't doing the tidying this has now stopped and I have been cleaning. Well I suffer severe paranoia and have scizoaffective disorder and social services are trying to get hold of my mental health records.
I have been 100% open and honest about my mental health and answered any questions they have. But I can't deal with them having access to my mental health records. It's personal and I don't want someone I don't trust reading them. I wouldn't want my husband or mother to read them.
I am feeling so paranoid right now I want to self harm to calm me down. I really don't want them to read my personal notes. This driving me insane I can't deal with this I can't face people all reading my personal private medical records!
I just want to run away because I really can't face them reading my records. I feel cornered and trapped.
Please don't judge me for not cleaning I really was I'll and just couldn't do it.
Right now I am so scared my children are going to get taken I to care I just want to run away so my partner has to give up work and care for them. Then once I am out of the picture my kids will be okay with their dad and there will be no risk of them getting taken into care.
Today they made me fill out a mental health questionnaire. Then when I did they were endlessly questioning me about every answer. For example they asked a question do you partake in activities that you normally enjoy I said no not at all. They kept asking me why? I don't see why it matters if I'm watching tv! I don't feel comfy discussing my mental health with unqualified people.
I started cleaning before they even visited the first time. I was only too I'll to clean a week and my Mia support worker who comes for my daughters special needs saw the house messy and referred me, and my house was clean when they came.
I don't know why I'm writing this thread I don't expect any help or anything. I guess your all just going to judge me.