I'm so lost, it's all too hard

[CuppaBiccieBliss]

Everything is a mess. I have a diagnosis of complex ptsd and am on meds but recently things have been getting worse. I can't remember the last time I had more than an hours sleep at night.
I am exhausted. The flashbacks consume me, the tiredness is slowly but surely killing me.
Today things are awful. I can't even go downstairs in my own home because being near the front door makes me panic. I have cried all day I wish someone would help but they won't.
I keep thinking how nice it would be to take all the pills, and fall asleep knowing that I'd never wake up

I am so sorry you're feeling like this. Is there anyone you can call? Will your GP come out?

Dp has tried the gp but they haven't got any appointments until Friday. I know that's not very long to wait but I feel like I don't have that long

I would give anything for just one proper nights sleep. It's so scary feeling like this and no one can do anything.

This won't last forever. I wish I had some better advice but it won't last forever.

((hugs))

Thankyou

I can't carry on like this. I have spent all day hidden upstairs just staring into space. Why won't this go away

But you got through the day. It's one day at a time.

I know you are right but the irrational part of me just can't see it The thought of persevering like this day after day has me in tears

I'm so sorry you are feeling like this. I have no advice beyond taking one day at a time. You are stronger than you think and you can do this. Keep talking Cuppa if it helps
xx

Thankyou I honestly don't feel strong. Tbh I'm not even sure I should be at home my cpn is coming tomorrow morning so I'll see if I can manage to say a single word to her.

Human beings are wonderful, strong things. Have you any one with you tonight?

I am sorry you're feeling so unwell. I think you're being really brave, just ringing the doctor and talking on here is a positive and courageous step. I know it's not easy but is there anything at all that could distract you, like a film, or playing a computer game? I play patience when I'm agitated.

You can always call the Samaritans as they are 24 hours, 7 days. It feels like time goes by so slowly but only really 1 day and you'll get to see the GP who will be able to help you. Big hugs xx

You can always call the Samaritans as they are 24 hours, 7 days. It feels like time goes by so slowly but only really 1 day and you'll get to see the GP who will be able to help you. Big hugs xx

Thankyou all

My cpn has been out this morning and she agrees that I need something to help me sleep so she will try to contact my psychiatrist.
I still feel very low and I'm not sure how much longer I can keep myself safe I hate being like this.

How are you Cuppa?