Constantly THINK I'm terminally ill

[Kezsc123]

I had my daughter 1yr4m ago now and ever since she was 2 months old I had started with panic attacks, which lead me to think I was having a heart attack or stroke ect, this stopped after a couple of months and was a massive relief, but then stomach upset came which of course I 'googled' and straight away brought up stomach cancer, convincing myself I had it it started the panic attacks again. After a few days I got better wih my stomach and also my thoughts eased with it, but then I found a 'mass' in my breast, baring in mind I was still breastfeeding at the time immediately put this down to breast cancer, I would find every opportunity to feel my breast to the point I lived with my hands down my bra, anytime, anywhere! I visited the doctors a month after noticing this and she assured me it was nothing but A mass of ducts from milk and the 'discharge I was getting was just milk (funny I know) ... Then my mind slowly got better not completely stopping me from prodding and poking at myself for months I then stopped breastfeeding, which meant I got my period back which if corse to me meant I had cervical cancer, so yes I went to my doctors 4 times over 4 months of spotting one day a month, I was refused a smear as these were my first periods since pre pregnancy and I am only 24, but with persuasion I finally got one which came back normal a month ago I was so releived I cried and haven't had spotting for 8 weeks now asif it was all in my head! But now I have had a streak of blood on the surface of my stool only a small amount but obviously I would find it because I'm obsessed and check EVERYTHING ..... I refuse to go back to the doctor as I suffer from piles and have for tthe last 4 years on and off, but knowing this still doesn't stop the thoughts and the obsessive checking and the terror of having bowel cancer. I am losing my mind with it, I can't catch a break where I go a month without thinking I have some terrible disease and it makes me feel so sad because I feel ungrateful for my generally good health. Sorry for the long post but it has been an eventful ongoing thing for over a year now and I don't want this to go in circles anymore :( x

How awful I'm the same. I had an ulcer and basically arranged my funeral convinced I had mouth cancer! Please do not google any symptom it always brings up worse case scenarios. I'm fine now I get these fears every now and then. Can be awful though lack of sleep stressing and worrying. Your not the only one with irrational fears. Don't really know what to suggest as nothing helped me just needed to get over each one on my own. You can imagine symptoms by thinking it all the time I convinced myself I had trouble swallowing I had earache feel a Tumour growing in my brain etc.
sounds silly now but at the time I was a complete nervous wreck! Can't really help but just letting you know I understand and your not on your own x

I think that's why I posted this not for help but just to know I wasn't alone, I think it's down to knowing I have something so precious to look after and I am so scared of leaving her. I can snap myself out of it now which is more than what I used to be able to do, I guess my downfall is just googling things over and over :/ .... And I was the same with an ulcer apart from I linked it to anemia which of course is one of the symptoms of a cancer (eye roll) but thankyou for sharing with me x

OP. I'm a mental health nurse and can tell you that Health Anxiety is a very common condition. Could you try speaking to your GP? Where I work we see very good results through CBT if they think a referral might be appropriate.