Is there anyway samartians can call me?

[Berryglitter]

I have no credit. At the lowest point I've been and there's no one to talk to. Everyone is busy. I feel so broken.

You can email them, Berryglitter, but they might not get back to you for a while. [email protected]

Other folk will no doubt be along on this thread soon to chat to you.

Thank you. I'll try that. I don't know what to do

Are you still able to chat?

I am sure someone more useful will post soon, until then please email the Samaritans or talk to us honey x

Yes I'm able to chat. I'm sat staring at the tv, trying to process everything rushing through my head.

Will gladly make a call for you and ask them to call you if you want to PM me your number.

I too would happily make the call for you, or at least chat here if you can

Would they do thar? I feel so silly but I'm so depressed. My life is such a mess at the moment.

Honestly they would, feel free to pm me.
If you don't feel like talking, how about typing? I'm here xx

With some Samaritans you can talk to them in branch, here

Have checked with someone I know who is a Samaritans volunteer and he confirms they would call you.

It's just so much to write down. I've split with dp, his choice but I'm devastated as I'm pregnant. Have a termination booked and he's said he'll come with me.

It's just such a mess, he was horrible to me when he was drunk (now found out drugs involved to) but I miss him so much I can't breathe. I saw him yesterday and slept with him which has messed my head up. He's then been out drinking last night now know one can get hold of him (phone off etc) all day. I'm worried sick he's got into some form of trouble.

We left it yesterday that we would just see how things go and not see other people. I just feel used though. I have always suffered with depression and I think this is coming back with a vengeance. I can't focus on anything. I'm worried sick about him. I shouldn't be he's been disgusting to me in the past (throat grabbing, verbal abuse etc) but I'm so weak I just want my life back.

What did I do to cause all this, I have no one to talk to as they all hate him or our his friends. My friends don't want to talk about it. I don't know what to do now. I know this all sounds so petty but my life is now turned upside down. Two weeks ago it was ok, getting better. Now I have nothing.

My ds is staying at his father's and I think that's for the best right now. I'm clearly a useless mum if I can't even manage to look after my child because I'm such an emotional wreck.

I'm sorry to hear that you are feeling so bad Berry. You are not being a bad mother - you just have a lot on your plate.

If you want Samaritans to call you, could you text them and give them your mobile number? That would be a quick way of getting them to call you. I think there text number is 07725 90 90 90

I've spoken to them, thanks :) however things have got worse. A friend went to his house, he's not there. So no one knows where he could be or what's going on. Phone still off. I'm getting very anxious and at rock bottom about everything. I want my son but I don't think I could be all he needs right now. I hate that I'm such a mess.

oh honey, it sounds like he is avoiding you :( I want to tell you not to waste your energy worrying about him but i know you will continue to do so. You don't have nothing, you have your DS and he is worth twenty of this horrible man who has destroyed your self esteem. I am sorry if my words are harsh but that really is the reality of it. I am glad you were able to contact the samaritans - were they of help? Would you consider talking to your gp? are you on any medication for your depression? maybe some counselling would help with your self esteem.

He's been found. Lost his phone last night at the boxing and has just got back (mutual friend went on a hunt) he's getting a new one and will call asap. I need to get myself together, clearly. I'm quite obviously incredibly paranoid. I used to be on anti depressants but with me it's more paranoia and anxiety. I'm not sure what way they would treat that.

I've tried counselling but it's never really helped. Cbt was the same. This has been a real wake up call, that I need to sort my health out. I'm scared of going to the gp incase they think I'm not good enough to look after ds. It doesn't help that I've had new very noisy neighbours move in and their partying has caused me to barely sleep all weekend.