Posting here, no-one in RL to talk to. Hope you don't mind. Am on the last 4-5 days of finishing my final project for uni. Obviously stressed and tired; lots still to do. It's been quite a battle. Today, I heard that my NC Mum (her choice, nearly twenty years ago , haven't seen her at all for ten. Met her maybe 3 times growing up in my teens) decided to get in contact with the family. She does this occasionally, and I ignore her because she has really complex MH issues. The main reason I ignore her is because she is in a relationship with some-one that I wouldn't want around my DD, and who has really, really hurt me in the past (don't want to go in detail- want to respect everyone on this board). She has left a message on my Grandfather's answer phone, saying she wants to visit. It's the only number she has. But my Grandfather died in January; she doesn't know. My Auntie picked it up. That's not her Dad, but my Dad's side of the family. My Mum doesn't know my address, mobile number, e-mail nothing.
I really need to get on and do some housework, get dressed properly (dropped to DD to school without a shower) and finish my big project, but am sat here crying instead. I really hate how she thinks she cam just turn up in my life as and when she feels like it. She has never end met my DD. She just makes me feel so rubbish, and doesn't even know me.
Sorry, just wanted to get that out and I have no-one in RL to talk to. I feel so lonely.