feel myself slipping but fear if I say this to people they will have no sympathy

[mistressmiggins]

because its 10 months since ex left and I should be accepting things as they are now & looking forward
I feel like Im slipping - dont want to go to work, loss of apetite, feel like shouting "F#ck off" to the kids (and I dont swear in RL)....have cried (really sobbed) yesterday & today in front of kids...am still on 100g of my ADS and wanted to cut down in October but just cant see dr agreeing to that....
just had argument with my parents - my dad was being unreasonable and my mum ALWAYS takes his side....
and days like this make me feel worse cos I miss my ex who would have calmly said the right things
moan over MN

Grieving is a really hard process, isn't it? You've been doing so well and had so much to deal with and then bang - another bumpy bit of road that shakes your confidence in all you've managed to achieve.

Don't worry about reducing your ADs for now, I'd suggest just concentrating on the short term and getting back on track. Can you get some time for yourself, is bastard ex taking the little ones any time soon?

Ah so sorry, was going to post my own depressed moan but not as bad as you but I've been there and know how you feel which doesn't help except that I feel better than you which shows that it does get better sometimes.

I think its cos had a really hard time at work recently and the only person I felt I could turn to was ex - I am so angry with myself for turning to him

I think its cos this weekend was the yr ago when I found out about the affair - never thought back then that Id be getting divorced even though the news was devastating

also its a significant event in our family this weekend and I've been Scrapbooking - think looking at all our photos - wedding new born babies etc has upset me

I know you guys understand - just my family a little "oh well just get on with it"

hes coming Sunday but Ive stupidly offered to cook lunch so that he will let DS go to a friend's bday party
stupid I know - SIL already told me that

DS starts school nxt week and ex not even asked

How long were you together?

Oh, MM. I can imagine just how hard this is for you. Sorry you are feeling so low.

Not asked about his ds starting school - what a tosser.

I don't think your family's attitude is very helpful - all divorces are horrible but yours was particularly so given what a complete arse he was. I remember reading your thread when he was insisting it was reasonable for him to be having dinner alone in a hotel with the beatch he had an affair with, I mean talk about shitting on you from a great height.

Of course it will take time for you to recover from that blow. It's not like you could do what any of us would do without kids, i.e. completely fall apart and go out on the piss 7 days a week (or is that just me?!). You've had to be strong and together for your kids and that's just so hard and such an achievement.

The scrapbooking must be really hard, do you need to do it right now? I guess if you do, at least it will be over soon and you can get back to focusing on the future rather than the past. But as to that, you have a lot to be proud of in your past - lovely children, and the knowledge that you did your damnedest to make your marriage work. Your ex is a twunt, plain and simple.

And congratulations on ds starting school!

thanks guys
my SIL has just popped round & said all the right things too

I do need to do the scrapbook - for this weekend, for my parents. They will really appreciate it...my SIL said shes been upset too as been looking through their photos which include my ex - my brother & SIL went to Uni with him

I feel awful as cried again in front of DS - he seems to think now daddy has left that its his job to look after me - nice but not his job.

I'll be OK - just needed a little virtual TLC

Awwww, MM, you are bound to have low days, you have been through a lot.
I hope you are feeling a little brighter soon.x

Ah,you poor love.

You wouldn't be human if you were completely over ti all.

Be good to yourself.

XXXX

Sorry to hear you're down mm. There is always love and support here.