depression in pregnancy

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so many ppl talk about pnd etc but ive suffered badly from depression during pregnancy,especially in the last two and at the moment.yet when i talk about it i get responses such as 'oh ur bound to have mood swings' etc.my gp says its understanable i feel depressed as i have the other kids to look after etc.but theres no reason for it,its like i get to 6 weeks pregnant and somebody sucks out my sense of humour,my desire to talk to friends and turns me into a monster that can only shout at then apologise to her children,and repeatedly asks dp 'do u still love me?' 'ru going to leave?'.a monster that is also fat and spotty.i know that i have got pretty much as low as i can get,but im scared that i'll somehow get 'stuck'like this and forget who i was before.
i was ok last time,after i gave birth i was fine apart from the usual baby blues,but i know i felt like me again.
am i the only person whos gone nuts just cos theyre pregnant?

i just read the thread on the link posted by thrufrock.i really didnt realise so many ppl had been throught he same thing as me.i think ive felt the same in all my pg,with the first i was working at butlins and nobody gave a crap about anyone there.they sent a social worker to see me and she told me i should have an abortion.luckily i think attitudes are changing now,though i still wonder when i think about what my consultant said.
another thing,somebody mentioned support groups.i was going to a pnd support group for ages with ds2,but a week after i gave birth to dd2 i got a letter from them telling me ds2 wasnt welcome anymore cos of his 'behaviour problems' (he was going through the terrible 2's,basically),and they didnt offer any alternative suggestions as to where i could go etc.it took me 6 months to pluck up the courage to complain but i was just fobbed off and it was made clear that it was me who wasnt welcome there.that is the only group of that kind in my area.soz to go on but that still gets to me,even after 9 months.

prufrock,i mean.dont know where my brains gone today sorry

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