I've finally made the decision that I need some medication. I've been seeing a private counseller for a little while and she's persuaded me to see a doctor. It's really been a difficult step for me to come to this decision.
I managed to phone the gp surgery yesterday and was told that there were no appointments at all and to ring back today, which I've just done to be told they can't fit me in for 2 weeks. Apparently I should go to a walk in centre if it's urgent.
I'm feeling suicidal, although I have no plans to actually kill myself now. I'm not sure a walk in centre would do anything.
Sat in the toilet at work crying.