Right here goes.
I'm 42, was diagnosed last autumn with under active thyroid, currently on 50mg of levothyroxine and had a 25mg increase recently but had horrendous side effects on it. Saw GP about this recently as have had next to no advice on my condition and she told me that last year my levels of thyroxine or whatever they were were really low and that's why I was how I was - I was basically feeling like I was crawling through mud every day, very very tired, depressed on and off, mood swings etc. On the levo I feel much better am hoping to get put on Armour as I've put on weight on the levothyroxine.
I'm not in a relationship but fairly happy, good circle of friends, nice family I see a lot, job is ok bearable and I seem happy from day to day. Have done things like started exercise regime and stopped spending money on silly things but am doing this longterm more. Makes me feel better.
In my job though about 2 years ago I was badly bullied at work, by family friend (who knows my boss and temps for us) and by my colleague too (they both know each other) - I raised a grievance but this was denied by both bullies and I actually got a warning as I got upset over it.
I've been trying to leave work since - but this may sound stupid - I am getting very nervous when it comes to typing tests (never had this problem before) - my hands shake so my speed is way down. The doctor did prescribe a tablet for it which sort of helped, but I know this sounds silly I feel maybe hypnotism will help more? I am looking into this. I work as a legal PA/Secretary and I need a minimum speed of 70 wpm which I am more than capable of and have got before.
I'm just anxious and depressed re the above and feel like I'm trapped in my job - been there 4 years on a 10K decrease in salary (wanted to sound keen, first legal job so accepted lower salary) - my boss sadly though is very mean, I did ask for a pay rise after a year but got declined and he would decline now, he's just like that.
Does anyone have any advice? This sounds really… pathetic and generally now, I'm happy - happyish - I do feel bogged down and unappreciated at work. I just want things to improve and for me to get a job where I feel appreciated and even better, with a salary I deserve.
