Last summer I was on my own in the US doing research when I became really suicidalMN people were so, so helpful. Well, I'm 10 days into another trip and I think I'm heading back down ago. Bugger. I can't sleep; the zopliclone isn't working any more. I'm having real urges to throw myself in front of a subway train, and I'm having 'odd' thoughts/seeing shadows. I don't actually feel low. I'm not sure what's going onit's like I'm in a dream. So, well, I'm just offloading here as a distraction. Not long left nowI fly Sunday and get home Monday morningso I'm going to have to try to hold things together until then. Sleep would be a good start.