Just before Christmas adult services made a baseless referal to child services because they felt I couldn't look after my baby. This was done in retaliation to the Court of Appeal finding against them in relation to the support they were refusing to provide me with. Child services investigated, closed the file and apolgised profusely as they could see it was a malicious referal. From hearing of the referal to the case being closed was 4 weeks. They were the longest, most devastating 4 weeks of my life.
Everyone expects me to move on and forget it, but I can't. I still feel utterly traumatised by it. I keep bursting into tears and haven't slept in months. I feel like I can't talk to anyone because although I know it was baseless, i feel so ashamed. I feel like people will think there's no smoke without fire and my beautiful little boy will be a social outcast because of it (small community).
I can't cope at all with the destruction they have wrought in my fragile little world. How do I begin to put myself back together?