Are the AD's working??

[mamaof2]

hi everyone,
First time posting on here but have been reading posts for months now!
Diagnosed with anxiety/PND 9 months ago after traumatic birth of son. Been on Citalopram (20 mg) for most of that time apart from few months ago when doc upped it to 30mg. Started feeling better couple of months ago so doc had me drop back to 20mg. Anyway, after 9 months of being on these Ad's, should I still be crying / feeling anxious/agitated/miserable/having mood swings/obssessional thoughts about death and dying? I know I am better than I was (couldn't eat, (lost 3 stone in six weeks) sleep, panic attacks, claustrophic, terrified to be alone etc in the first few months BUT i still don't feel like me. My head feels so fuzzy and woolly some days and I keep getting dizzy spells which terrify me and make me think I have something seriously wrong with me. My concentration and memory are appalling (actually made a cheese sauce and forgot to put cheese in which would be funny if it wasn't so sad...) I actually upped the dose today back to 30mg to see if it makes a difference. Do you think that was a stupid thing to do? Can't be bothered to go back and see my Dr. because nothing ever changes.
Sorry this is long and rambling but i feel like I have been trapped in a horribly bad dream the last 10 months, so any advice from you all would be a godsend.
Thanks

I had very bad anxiety and PND after my DS was born he was also a difficult birth. I've been on citalopram for 6 weeks now and i feel a lot better the anxiety has really calmed down. i started out on 20mg which worked quite well but last week the Dr upped it to 30mg as i was still having the occasional bad day. It does sound that you need to be on a higher dose, but you really should speak to your dr so they know what you are taking. Can you see a different Dr if you're not happy with the one you've been seeing? I know what you mean about been caught up in a bad dream this last year has been one of the most frightening of my life. I had a ton of physical symptoms because of my PND and anxiety and speant months thinking i was seriously ill and about to die. I do feel so much better now, so please see you GP again so you can get your dose right and start feeling better.