I had a bad day yesterday, quite out of the blue, happens maybe once/ twice a year. I woke up and was crying quite a lot. Had felt a bit not settled for a two evenings and then it all came out yesterday.
Im a lone parent, i have been since my baby was 20 weeks, shes now 8.5. Shes with my ex husband this week, on holiday, when he pays me the minimal amount of csa then takes most of that off me in joint loan replayments ( which no solicitor can sort as its a bank issue and he refuses to speak to the bank). It feels like its rubbing my nose in it a bit.
Im damn poor, ive been damn poor for years and im £30 short on my rent this month. I have no idea where i can get £30 from.
Ive been messed about a bit by men/ dating at the beginning of the week and already this year ive had two month long things which i have had to end due to them being dickheads.
Im just a bit tired/ fed up/ feeling that its all very unfair.
Most of the time im fine, im bimble along, i do stuff with DD, the house is clean, im good at work, i feel happy, despite all the above crap. But this week, i just dont feel great about it. I feel annoyed, angry, pissed off and just crap about what has become my lot. I think its probably quite normal to feel like that, in what are, rather shit circumstances.... but my friend kept going on and on about depression. ( i say friend, its a lady at work who i never actually see at work, i think ive seen her maybe a handful of times in the last year, so she doenst really ' know' me)
So, i thought id post, for a better. maybe more informed view.