Think I'm heading for another break down.

[DumDum32]

I'm not interested in anyone or anything including my DD :( I feel dis connected with everything. Mood is really low. All I want to do is sleep.

I'm bloody depressing everyone around me aswell.

I've had these kind of feelings before & medication has helped sort me but not this time. Not even diazepam is helping!

I just want to go to sleep & not wake up :(

N how long will these flashbacks of childhood abuse last for??? I'm sick & tired of seeing the b***ds face!

Have you got access to CMHT or crisis?

I've got access to Cmht snowy but haven't rang them as yet. Don't know what I will say... They usually not interested nor supportive :(

It's worth a try though, DD32 Or your GP? Someone in RL should help, you sound in crisis...

I've just had a call from my support worker she is going to pop round in an hours time. I'm going to speak to her about it & try to make sense.

I hope it went well, DD32

Thanks snowy... I've taken my sleeping pills (double dose) to knock out. I can't deal with anything tonight I just want to shut down!

(((hugs))) No advice, just support xx I hope you feel a bit better in the morning x

Thanks Lem

I've just got a really bad headache today & my eyes won't open. Still in bed & DD is lying with me with her iPad. Just feel really low :(

Been in bed all day... Just want to cry but can't for some reason it's like all my tears are dried up.... Feel so stressed out but about what I have absolutely no idea.... Have barely for through looking after my DD today... Just want to go to take my meds & go to sleep now :(

This is no way to be living at all... I wish I could just snap myself out of this but it doesn't work like that does it?

Sadly it doesn't, no :( Can you get back onto your CMHT and tell them you are really struggling?

lem they are organising an appointment for me but want me to give the diazepam a chance to work.

I think I will call them up tomorrow again... I just don't know what else to say that I haven't already... I get brain freeze sometimes when talking it's like my brain shuts down & I loose the ability to speak. Oh god I sound soooo stupid now.