I've posted this in MH because I can recognise it as an anxiety issue, not a physical health issue.
During my first pregnancy and subsequent birth, I've disliked my GPs more and more. You can never specify which GP you'd like to see and with my DD, we had weight gain issues which several of the doctors were very critical of me about - I was EBFing and one said I was being irresponsible. DD went onto to feed like a champ and gain weight very well but I still feel upset about how I was treated. I just felt worse and worse every time I've had to go to the GP - they're rude, abrupt, dismissive, make critical statements and one completely missed a very serious illness with DD even though I sat in his office, begging to be taken seriously.
I'm pregnant again and have built up quite a lot of anxiety about having to go and see one of them to be referred for the booking in appointment. I want to change GPs but just seem to be frozen into inaction about it. I've become scared all GPs are the same, and I also can't quite believe these four in this one practice are so awful. I feel a bit paralysed by the whole thing, to be honest 