That's it, really. Feel really rubbish- long history with my Mum, who let abuse and neglect happen. Haven't seen her since I was 19, only met her twice in my adult life. Not seen her for most of my childhood.
Feel so rubbish just thinking about all the stuff I have to do today, how I'm not a very good Mum to my DD, not a good example, I neglect her etc. Haven't even got dressed yet. Was up until 3am sorting out some coursework that's due in May (one of three extended pieces); it's nowhere near finished. My friends are all saying how great their mums are, spending time with them and everything.
Can't really go out, have no money to do anything. Feel rubbish. Like I'm failing at being a mum because I'm on my own and I have to do everything by myself, so lots of things don't get done.
DD tipped cereal everywhere this morning, took me an hour to sort out the kitchen after. Now I have nothing to do but sort the uniforms and more coursework later.
I just hate, hate the whole day. I thought I was doing better with it, but maybe not.