Hi, just going round in circles at the moment.
I have a few issues, and the main one at the mo is my lack of confidence. I am seemingly confident to the outside world! I don't like to be a moaner. however, at the mo, everythings seems difficult, negative, pointless. I have had many hard times over the last several years and things are nowhere near as bad as they have been, but I think I've just run out of energy and enthusiasm.
I know in theory what needs doing (practical stuff, emotional stuff), but just can't seem to summon up the impetus to do them! I have read so many threads and help things on the web, and read self-help books, which do make me feel more positive - but then proceed not to take action! I am so frustrated at myself! I used to have a lot of get up and go, but it's just got lost over recent years...
I plan things that need doing, make lists, etc etc, but then just get home from work and procrastinate or half-do them. I am really getting on my own nerves! I've tried to look at why I procrastinate etc, and just beat myself up for being lazy. I get envious at people who seemingly have it 'together' and then beat myself up because I know I could be as well, if I just sorted myself out!
I know my life will be better if I sort certain things out - why am I putting it off! I am pretty certain I haven't got depression or anything like that - just lack of motivation etc.
does anyone else get this - long term, not just a phase?