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Mental health

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Warning long and stupid feelings alert!

12 replies

Beauregard · 16/08/2006 21:47

I had finally had a few good weeks and had plucked up the courage to ask my gp if i could try going back to work(following mat leave and 10weeks sick)but today it has gone tits up
I was phoning occu/health this morning to inform them that i would be returning in 2weeks time and would they still need to see me for appt in sept!
The woman i spoke to(didn't give her name or i cant remember it)was quite snooty with me and told me that if that was the case although short notice could i go in to see the visiting occu/nurse (as they only come monthly),when i replied that unfortunately i wouldn't be able to due to prior arrangement she retorted with "Oh i shall take that as a no then shant i"[cue snooty tone of voice),i swallowed the tension rising up in me but then she came back to me with "Oh well you will have to come to us "which instantly made me panic as it is a long way away and i cant drive and no way would dp take me all that way and who would look after the dd's etc!I felt the panic take hold and blurted out"am i a problem to you ,only you seem to have been funny with me" she said"Oh noooooooooooo i dooooooooonttttttttt think sooooooooooooo! do you?"by which time i was sobbing and telling her to forget everything so i put the phone downDp phoned back to have a go at her as i was so upset but they conveniently couldn't recall whom i spoke to
I know i am probably over reacting but i had worked so hard with myself to get to that point and i felt like i was being kicked down at the 1st hurdle.I know im not paranoid and im quite a good judge to know when people are being 'funny'with me.I feel very weak again mentally and feel as though i have been pushed back 3 months in recovery .I am now too scared to return to work as i have a horrid manager and i feel if occu/health could be like that with me what on earth will he be like?So i am stumped ,numb,confused ,we cant afford for me to not go back to work indefinetley.
I wanted to be strong and go back as i thought that the longer i left it the worse it would be for me.I am waiting for treatment but it could be months yet.
There are people on here with tragic/terrible troubles in their lives and i am like this,but i cant help it.
Sorry for the rant and the length of this but it helps to get it all down i suppose!
Not sure where i go from here?
now i feel daft for writing this.

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Beauregard · 16/08/2006 21:49

by the way the prior arrangement was taking dd1 to spend the day with her friend and she behaved appallingly and was horrid.

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MissyCocker · 16/08/2006 21:53

Are you sure you're ready to go back?

It sounds like you might be pushing yourself a bit too hard. Is it absolutely necessary, financially, that you work?

I'm sorry you've had such a rough day x

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Beauregard · 16/08/2006 21:55

Not sure if i am ready now?
we cant survive on dp's salary alone.

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Dior · 16/08/2006 21:57

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Beauregard · 16/08/2006 22:05

I dont think that i can just leave as they may ask me to pay the mat pay back,dont think there is any temp work i am qualified to do?[thick]

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MissyCocker · 16/08/2006 22:30

Can't you apply for incapacity benefit in the meantime, it sounds to me like you'll end up making your situation worse if you force yourself back into any job at the moment.

nearlythree · 16/08/2006 23:41

Try contacting the Citizens Advice Bureau to see what entitlements you may have and what your rights are re. the maternity pay. If your GP signs you off I'd be very surprised if you'd have to pay everything back.

nearlythree · 16/08/2006 23:42

Oh, and do you have membership of a trade union or representation at your place of work? They could probably help.

puff · 17/08/2006 00:09

If you are a member of a union, contact them asap to establish exactly what your rights are.If you are not a member, then CAB is a good idea, or perhaps the union could help if you join (not sure if this is possible, but worth investigating)?

I'm not au fait with current rules on maternity pay, but it used to be that if you were off sick for x amount of weeks after your maternity leave ended, then you did not have to pay back maternity pay.

You need to find out how much sick pay you are entitled to, at what level of pay and for how long.

I think it would be a good idea to see your gp asap and tell him/her what has happened. They may well sign you off for longer - it doesn't sound as though you should go back just yet.

Is your job in the public or private sector - just wondering as the union set up for public sector jobs is pretty good on the whole.

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Beauregard · 17/08/2006 21:12

Thanks for the posts.
I will go back to my gp next week and tell her what happened.
I work for the NHS but im not in any union.
I want to complain about the woman on the phone,i think she is the secretary although not sure who to see.
It has made me too scared to go back now and im very anxious again on top of the depression, i keep getting palpitations for no reason and feel like ive been punched in the stomach.

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Dior · 17/08/2006 21:16

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divastrop · 21/08/2006 20:44

the CAB would defo be ur best bet,u should be entitled to ssp or incapacity benefit and they will be able to advise u accordingly and help u with forms etc

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