Sertraline buddies - support for anybody taking Sertraline

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I eventually went to docs yesterday, been really suffering with depression. Is it possible the medication can result in side effects straight away? I'm feeling sick and no appetite today, however feeling better, clearer... I'm on 50 mg the lowest dose.. Anyone else share their experience please?

Rusty, when I'm really anxious it feels like my mind is racing, thoughts whirring round and round, faster and faster, and I can't stop them.

I get that too kazza. Also I get a feeling of dread, like something awful is about to happen and I'm on high alert waiting for it, but I don't know what the something is.

For the last few months I was waking up with my stomach churning, like really bad butterflies - and that would carry on all day, every day.

Thankfully all of the above seems to have pretty much gone at the moment...

I am one week in now. Started on 100 mg today as dr wants to ramp it up quite quickly. Took it this morning and I feel hideous. Anxious, stressed that I won't be able to cope. I have so much going on this week I can't afford to feel shit. I wish I didn't have this condition. I just want a bit of peace, a break from my head. This is shit.

Hope you are all getting on ok.

Sorry to hear that Stuff, but that feeling will pass when your body gets used to the increased dose.

Yes Chuffchuff, that feeling of dread, it's awful. Like something awful is going to happen.

I've got to the point where I don't answer the phone, don't want to speak to anyone, just want to sleep or at least stay in bed.

Rusty, I get nervous, as if I'm under threat. I'm constantly on edge, irritable yet weepy. Can't stand crowds, or people touching me. Feeling all the time on high alert. It's horrible.

I really don't understand how I feel. It's all tension in and around my grown. all down my legs. I don't feel like I'm worrying but the feeling itself make me worry. it zaps my confidence so much. This all started with some relationship problems, like a switch was flicked in me, but I can't turn it off.

My DS's bed, clothes, body is clean. He is well fed and warm and loved.

The rest of the house is a shit tip

WTF is that about?

Why can't i tidy my house up like a normal person?

Is it admitting that i might have some control and a clean house means a clearer mind?

What the fuck am i rebelling against?

It is disgusting in here and i need to clean up

I am sick of not doing my job fucking sick of it

Not feeling jittery gere or condtant feeling of dread feeling calmer.

How we all doing today?

Day 5

Well today I feel better, have blocked a friend's number as i really cannot be arsed with her problems any more.

I need to be alone and focus on me. Lose weight, do some voluntary work and moan on here to you guys

I have bought Floradix from Holland and Barrett. It is liquid iron and vitamin formula, contains herbal extracts and fruit juice concentrates.

Iron, vitamin B2, B6, B12 and C contribute to the reduction of tiredness and fatigue.

Two 10 ml shots twice per day.

250 ml bottle for around eight pounds.

I have been thinking about trying vitamin D.

Hi Sole Glad you're feeling better today.

We're having a lazy day.

I too am staying away from a friend for now, because she always drags me down and I can't cope with it at the moment.

I'd like to sort my life too, I'm waiting for dh to start work in a week, then I'll have some time to myself on my days off.

Hey kazza :)

do you feel motivated to do housework etc? i just do not, A huge mountain to climb and just needs doing again and i am sick of it.

i have a big problem with keeping a routine.

:(

feeling like a big fat failure, cannot even tidy up.

Oh and i have lost 8lb in weight since I started.

Hi kazza and sole

I think I have the opposite problem to you sole my anxiety has made me a bit OCD about cleanliness - I have to have everywhere tidy & clean or I can't sit still . But am getting a little bit better on that front I think - one of the DC left a load of board games spread all over th floor last night and I couldnt be arsed to pick them up so I left them there! Might sound a bit sad but that's a big thing for me...

Having a lazy day here too - and I still feel nice and calm and relaxed today, so just hope that continues.

My none clean house is making me feel anxious a bit. :( I hate this lazy ass aspect of myself. It is disgusting.

No Sole, it's daunting, I've let it go for so long due to working and dh always saying, oh, sit down and watch tv with me instead, and obviously he's only done the bare minimum whilst at home (for over TEN months!) that now it's quite scary. But I AM looking forward to getting stuck in once he's gone back to work, because I find it quite cathartic, seeing it sparkling clean after working hard, so in a week and a half (covering for a colleague for a bit, but next day off after dh back at work will be thursday after next) I will make a start.

Day 6

I hate the mess kazza Never get visitors here, DS doesn't know so i get away with being lazy for so many years it has become a bad habit.

Feeling relaxed, so may things that would have a negative effect on me that i have experienced or seen has not been able to penetrate this invisible shield of protection that the Setraline provides.

Am i brave enough to write here of all those things?

They will seem pathetic to most but do have a lot of time on my hands to think and writing them down would help me when i look back to realise just how far i have come.

These tablets could change my life for the better.

Caanot be arsed to change i to I.

Sole, I'm so glad the tablets are working . That is really great news.

Go ahead and post here, I think the things that worry us are very individual, but one thing I've learnt from being depressed and anxious is not to judge other people - I suffer with emetaphobia (phobia of vomiting) and people keep saying to me, yes, I don't like that either - well, it's not about "not liking" it, it sends me into such a panic, I curl up in a ball and cry, I have panic attacks, at just the slightest hint that a sickness bug is going round school etc. It's difficult to understand what it feels like if you haven't experienced it, so I try not to judge anyone anymore.

If writing it all down helps, go ahead, I say. I hope others agree? Or you could start your own thread, as a sort of diary, if you like?

OK thank you kazza

I will stay here if others are OK with it, until somebody objects.

Road rage twats giving me dirty looks, friend not phoned me for days after awkward meeting on Saturday but i won't phone her again she can cunt off.

These things really play on my mind usually and i think that i am cursed and am meant to be so miserable and down until i i
kill myself. But inside know i am not miserable usually happy, hard to explain. I feel as if something is out to get me all the time, well rarely in the last few days.

I'll think of more.

SoleSource, I don't know about you but when my house is messy, my mind feels messy. I am not a neat obsessive or anything, but like a little bit of order .

I am now on day 7. Today the crapness has ramped itself up a bit. Feeling completely manic, racing thoughts, can't sit still. This drug better be worth it.

Let's all keep plodding on. Its got to make us all feel better soon, surely?

Yes, my mind is messy that is why I cannot tidy, it is a betrayal of my mind :(

I also cannot recall the last time i had a visitor to my house. That makes me so sad. I cannot do a lot with my DS as he is severely disabled. Other peoples children do not understand and are frightened of him or their parents are ignorant too.

Not spoken to a soul today again.

Have school review meeting today at 2 pm for DS special needs statement. Not really looking forward to it.

Day 7

Looking forward to having something to do today, going to prepare my clothes, might have my hair blow dried too. Just shows I need something to do with my time and this reduced anxiety might allow it!

Will go and visit college today to see if I can enroll for a course.

Will visit voluntary bureau this week to.

Feeling dehydrated, dry mouth from day one. Bit of a headache right in the middle of my brain last night

I feel really odd today, like lead. I was the same yesterday but presumed that 3 hours sleep was the cause, but no, slept last night from midnight until 7 and today just the same. It's like the stoned feeling but heavier. I am fit for nothing at the moment, physically.

SoleSource good luck at the meeting today. Are there no local groups for parents of severely disabled children where you could meet people in a similar position?
Hope everyone is starting to feel better. I have had to come off the tablets completely to allow my gut to heal. Day 5 with no tablets for me! :( Not sure what the next steps will be.