told dh - he just said 'don't be silly'. Hard for him as he has no clue and I have been so much better lately.
However felt so sad last few days and then today I think there was a trgigger into something that I cannot even remember; I am now lying on the bed clutching a teddy and crying.
Weird as before I have only felt like od-ing when really sad/down but this time it seems like a real conscious thing - I know I don't want to, I remind myself that my kids need me and I have my safety plan but none of it is working fully. I have an almost physical urge to get up and walk to the cupboard with the pills...
Fighting it for now, but it scares me