No particular reason why I should be. I've known the lady for a while, she's perfectly nice, our toddlers get on well & she knows I have depression & anxiety. I have no very close friends & am generally terrified of getting close to people after being bullied for many years at school by my so-called 'friends'. I'm now 27 & really need to get over it & start living a 'normal' life, whatever that is! I'd love to have just one or 2 friends that I actually did things with, rather than just people I exchange small talk with at toddler groups etc. I'm not really sure what I'm scared of. She's lovely! Every time I think about it all I can picture is not having anything to talk about or responding in the wrong way to something & making her feel unwelcome, or being too enthusiastic & scaring her away! I feel like it's a first date! 
I'm rubbish at socialising. What do we talk about? What do I do? I've really got to stop obsessing about it. I just get really awkward when I'm alone with people. I have to be though or I'll just sit there while everyone else chats or look at DH every time someone speaks to me! I can do this. I probably don't come across as bad as I think... maybe! I just can't stop thinking about silly little things like when should I offer drinks - while she's coming in or do I wait for her to settle & then ask? It's ridiculous how nervous I get at just the thought of spending time with a perfectly nice person! I've been known to fake illnesses in the past when I've arranged to meet up with someone & chickened out! 
I'm determined not to this time. I made a point of telling DS today & he's really excited so it'd make me feel too guilty if I cancelled! DS1 is nearly 2.5 & we've only had 2 playdates & they were with small groups, rather than individuals, & I mostly just sat & listened to everyone else chat.
Tell me it'll be ok?!