Hi. Thank you so much for your replies, and for asking. I feel less alone knowing there are people out there who would take the time to do that.
I feel a bit better. Still really tearful, but my flat is an absolute tip so I set aside a day to sort it all out, have a bath after and then order takeaway probably. I've sorted one room, am just doing it in bits and pieces because there's so much of it. DD has new curtains, so put those up and I've got some new storage units coming for her later. So, putting those together will be a task, I'm sure. Sorted out her toys, and put up some fairy lights from the lounge she wanted, too. My room, kitchen, bathroom, lounge, all need organising, vacuuming, dusting, doors wiping down etc.
I think when I have some of that sorted, I will feel more organised. Lastinglight, I'm a writer alongside my studies. That's my actual job where I get some publications and p/t workshops occasionally. I keep a blog, and seek out some support from my writer friends. I e-mailed one last night, because all I kept doing was crying, and said I'm rubbish at asking for support, but can I ask for some please? I just said I don't know what I need. Just a friend, that's all.
I think that's what it comes down to. Needing a friend. I still really feel like crying all of the time, and I do wonder if that's grief. It's hard to unravel, because having PTSD complicates an already complicated situation. I was only diagnosed in May.