I think I am suffering from depersonalisation, on quite a big scale and I am absolutely terrified. I went through the most traumatic experience a new mum could possibly go through a few months ago. I have been ok, well - as ok as I can be under the most stressful circumstances I think anyone could go through, but in the last week to ten days I have experienced more and more bouts of these episodes and have had 3 today already. it feels like an "out of body experience", like I am detached from my body, like I am watching myself. My voice sounds weird, my face looks strange in the mirror. I get confused very easily and I get very frightend I can't remember basic things. The world seems loud and very scary. Every little problem is accentuated and magnified a million times over. I feel like I can't breathe properly.
These episodes come on suddenly with no warning and no real pattern. Within anything from 10-40 minutes they are gone, and I am left exhausted and tearful.
I can't possibly tell anyone - I really can't, I can't risk it. But I am so so frightened that I am going to lose my mind entirely and that these episodes will become my life. God I am so so terrified.
Has anyone experienced this before and could anyone tell me how the hell to make them stop? I am on meds for pnd/ptsd - Sertraline 50mg - and have honestly been ok for months.