I can't hold on anymore

[CuppaCiggieBiccieBliss]

I am so fed up of everything and don't know what to do anymore

I have complex ptsd due to sexual abuse, have horrendous nightmares and flashbacks, can't sleep properly, self harm and a whole host of other shit to deal with.
Today has pushed me over the edge. dd2 is 4 months, she's teething and being a general nightmare, dd1 is 4 going on 14, I can't cope with it anymore. I have cut today, now I just want to take all the pills in the house and fall asleep. I don't know what to do anymore

Thanks Kohl, I'm still the same, no sleep at night but did manage a couple of hours yesterday afternoon. The panic attacks seem to be getting worse, but I suppose everything seems worse when you're tired.