I hate my psychiatrist.

[selfdestructivelady]

I have bipolar and borderline the bipolar is under control by meds but the borderline is in full symptom mode. I took a overdose over Christmas and I was also up the hospital for self harm.

When I saw my psychiatrist he said if I kill myself it's his job on the line so if I do it again he will take my meds away. He also said if I'm constantly up crisis they will get social services involved that what I'm doing is all behaviour and I need to get my act together.

So now I feel like suicide and self harming and I'm too scared to call crisis.

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Well I'm not surprised you hate him, sounds like he was totally insensitive. Please call someone though, Samaritans maybe?

It sounds harsh but I think he is encouraging you to try to take some of the responsibility for yourself.

I also have a diagnosis of BPD and it has been made very clear to me that if I OD on my prescription meds they will be changed to daily collection - thinking about that certainly helps to put me off overdosing on them. So I wonder if that is part of his thinking.

If I remember you have been referred for some mindfulness therapy, that should help.

All that said I do think that he is being very unsympathetic about your BPD, it is a diagnosis with a huge amount of stigma to it and it sounds like your psychiatrist is not very up to date with working with people with personality disorders.

Sorry to hear he put it so bluntly. Hope mindfulness helps you.

I guess they have a duty of care to you so if medication is abused they perhaps have to decide what is best. Can you ask for any medication to be done by depot injections. Think they can do it fortnightly - usually a nurse does it so just a few minutes taken. That way you get your meds but are safer? Not all meds can be depot though. Worth an ask.

Different areas have different policies. Where I live the policy is to refer to social care of present at A and E with self harm or OD. It is just professional passing on risk assessment to a team with more time to check if the family has enough support. So the dr is just letting you know procedure. The SS is not a threat and it is just an assessment to see if you need more help as people who are hurting themselves may succeed and they have to consider the whole family.

Do call crisis. They are there to help you be ok. The people who seek help do not need other agencies. It is the people who hurt themselves and need a and e they tend to worry about is what crisis told me.

Thank you yes he has referred me for mindfulness.