Hi
There is a lot going on so feel free to ask questions if I haven't covered something, but the basic, is I have always had depression in my adult life, it got a lot worse in my pregnancy, in which I had severe depression but also I got a "diagnoises" of addictive personality, I also got a diagnosis of fear of crowds along with long term depression, I worked with a councillor with CBT and things seemed to be much better (this was 2 years ago) In October I found myself going downhill, no reason. However I also found out I was pregnant, in November i had a miscarriage and this sent me to the pit.
I have only just started to get myself out of it, with a large amount of support from my OH, however I have knocked myself back three years now, I have panic attacks leaving the house. Anything without my OH is just not happening, this is my worse nightmare.
I went to the doctor who reccommended councilling. After one phone session the "girl" and her supervisor called me (they were meant to call on the monday, they called on the tuesday, this could of been a mistake if due to my pariano I hadn't recorded the conversation) There decision is to send me to group theropy (incase you forgot I have a fear of crowds) and also one to one sessions half an hour drive from me. I can barely leave my own home.
I think personally I have more than depression, and trying to get a diagnoises to find the right cure.
I want to get better, my trade is to work in pubs and I am unable to do it but what they are suggesting for a first app is not realistic.
What the hell am I meant to do