Please tell me I'll feel better soon

[alicemac83]

Hi, I suffered from pnd 3 years ago, took citalopram and had counselling. Since then I've been totally back to normal and put it firmly in my past. Then last week I felt the old feelings coming back- panic, hopelessness, depression, feeling like I'm watching other people from behind glass, feeling envious of everyone else, feeling disconnected from my family. I phoned my doc who said it was January blues but I know it isn't. I told my boss yesterday who was lovely and I'm seeing my doc today. I guess I thought pnd was a one-off but maybe I need to accept that I might suffer from depression? Xx

Hi, thanks so much for your reply, I moved to a new town 5 on this ago but I've been really happy. I think the trigger could be that last week my daughter was really, really difficult for a few days. It was the worst she's ever been (normally very good). I shouted and she said she didn't love me. I started feeling negative towards her, and then I started panicking that the pnd was back. It's just got worse since then xxx

Thank you preciousbane, your post has given me great comfort. I think ever since pnd I have constantly analysed my feelings towards dd, so when we had the horrible few days I panicked that I didn't love her. That's lead to the way I feel right now, which sadly is numb to most emotions. I think counselling will really help me resolve some of these issues xxx