I don't know what to do.

[Thants]

I have GAD, OCD and health anxiety. I'm currently having CBT and take escitalopram and propranolol.
I just feel like nothing is working. My anxiety is so intense all of the time at the moment. Even when I'm not panicking the lower level symptoms mean I constantly feel so nauseous and shaky. It's unbearable. A lot of my anxiety is around worrying my fiancé will leave me or get hurt. I completely obsess and have intense panic attacks if I can't contact him. I don't want to make him unhappy and he is supportive but I just feel like a burden. I'm so incapable of doing the simplest of tasks and just feel trapped by my thoughts. He says he feels like he is my carer sometimes.
I've just left work saying I felt ill because I just don't feel I can cope any longer. I don't know what to do. I don't feel like I ever want to leave the house again. I've been having suicidal thoughts even though I obsessively worry about getting hurt or ill. CBT feels like it's going nowhere. It was useless before. What can I do?

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can you make apt with your doctor for some meds adsjustment, January is a very tough month

thinking of you X

Hi Thants - I'm so sorry you feel like this. I just wanted to let you know you're not alone. I have GAD too, am on Sertraline and am going through a really bad patch right now. My DH finds my anxiety hard to deal with too, as your DP does.

I think going back to the doctor, looking at meds again is your best bet. CBT was never much good to me, but I felt I was really getting somewhere with mindfulness. I let it slide over the past few months and I feel that's linked to why I'm feeling so bad now. Is mindfulness something you've ever tried/read about it?

I know it feels unbearable right now, so here's a hand to hold. It won't last forever.