Can someone just sit with me a minute please?

[WhatTheFudge]

This isn't really my first post, I have name changed but I have been a member for a while (yoni, naice ham, THAT beaker, AF)

I am just feeling really overwhelmed today, I have anxiety which I take ADs for..i have always been a worrier but since the traumatic birth of my youngest child it has been taking over.

I am just so fed up of worrying all the time. I think I have cracked a filling so now I am freaking out I am going to lose the tooth (cant really afford to lose anymore ) I currently have a nasty chest infection so I am worried about that, we have money worries at the moment I just don't know how we are going to cope...the kids have been ill over Christmas..i have been so worried about them.

Thanks for reading this far, my grammar and punctuation are appalling but please see past it it just felt good to get it all written down.

Consider my bum on a seat next to you!

Are you feeling better now that you have written it all down.

Hi WhatTheFudge. It sounds like you've got a lot going on Hopefully someone with knowledge about anxiety will come along soon!

I am sorry you are feeling so worried and overwhelmed. Having a chest infection is horrible for you and I guess you have a lot on your plate with the DC too.

Can you break your worries down into manageable bits? Are the DC getting better now? Can you see a way through your money problems? can you get some RL help from family or friends?

I haven't been following your previous posts, so I don't know any details about your situation; just didn't want to read and run.

reading that back it all seems so trivial

thank you for responding, I do feel better now I have written that down.

Plonking my arse. Sorry you are feeling overwhelmed. When I am having a bad day and everything is on top of me, I find writing it all down helps. Hope you feel better soon.

I'm here. I worry and can be quite paranoid about social stuff. At times its has tipped over into anxiety.

How old is your youngest now?

I totally get the 'fed up' thing. For me I just want my brain back, it is mine and not ve overrun with these worries - and I know they are silly, even the relevant ones I spend way too much time thinking about stuff.

Putting the worrying aside you seem to have a lot on your plate:

You are ill x 2 tooth and chest
Financial pressures
Poorly kids

You can be forgiven for worrying with all this. The kids will get better, the fact you worrying indicates you care - so im assumming you have cared for them and got htem over the worst.

Its a bummer about your tooth - I have gaps but not noticeable ones and I need another root extraction doing (ive put it off for so long). The dentist told me I'd be fine and manage fine with one less and I didnt have to have an expensive implant.

Finances - there are lots of stuff you can do to help ease this. But right now you need your energy back. For me next week is about getting back into a routine.

Its ok to take small steps until we get back up to full stride again.

The DCs are much better now, which is a relief. I think with everything going on it has just magnified everything into something much bigger than it already is.

Thank you so much for taking the time to reply, all of you, it is helping to put it all back into focus.

well thats the thing fudge seperate they'd be smaller but these things have come all at once for you so seem bigger. Even if one of them things came along one per week you'd be a bit peeved and worried.

is your chest getting any better? is it worth going back to GP?

My chest is getting better now, I am much better than I was. Everything can be sorted its just when you sit and think about it and it all seems so massive, broken up and written down and I can look and think 'well, I can do X about Y, Z can be sorted Monday' it doesn't seem as bad.

It is the first time I have written down my worries and it has made me feel a bit better

Just offering a hand to hold.Anxiety is a bastard.

Very true fudge, after floating along for Nov/Dec I have returned to some things I used to do to make me feel more in control. I red some selp help pages on web to get things in perspective.

I know Im much better when I am in a routine and I am busy. Otherwise I just fester a bit too much.

This is a good point in they year to make any changes as lot of others are too.

Im pleased your chest is better. Could you use any relaxation techniques - my best one is to read a book, it distracts me from thinking myself up into mess in my head.

Fester is a brilliant word to describe it. I do really enjoy reading I will make my aim this year to get into some books I have just sat there on the shelf. I pick them up with good intentions and they don't get read.

any recommendations thinker?

Well at my worst points I would read chick lits - they are easy to process, dont require too much thinking and just enough to distract.

My favourite fictional read is Patricia Cornwell's Kay Scarpetta series (as you can see Im not terribly hight brow!) These often have me gripped I cant put them down and need to know who did it. The character Kay is a bit dysfunctional herself so its kind of comforting as she still does a professional job. I love all the forensic stuff. Though if you are feeling emotional check the content as some of these involve children.

I seldom read fiction these days as I am studying with OU (degree) - the timetable and deadlines for assignments drive me along to read the course materials. It forces me to be organised. I am between modules at the moment. I have noticed I am worse when not studying.